welcome to aquarius season, beloved weirdos. the revolution will not be televised. It’ll be made into art.
It’s Aquarius Season — the time of year when everyone suddenly becomes allergic to authority, obsessed with systems theory, and emotionally unavailable in the name of “objectivity.” The vibes are curious-but-chaotic, compassionate-but-detached, and Uranus is here shaking the table like, “Who made these rules and why are we still following them?”
As an air sign season, we are now living in our heads. Rent-free. With 47 tabs open. (yo, for some of us, that is home.)
Aquarius energy is innovative, intelligent, humanitarian, and just rebellious enough to make boomers uncomfortable. This is the sign of questioning everything, refusing to conform, and caring deeply about humanity while forgetting to text back friends.
Aquarius doesn’t follow the crowd. Aquarius redesigns the whole dang system. And currently, we are living for that energy.
We are talking:
- originality as a lifestyle
- independence bordering on “don’t touch me”
- big ideas with zero instructions
- emotional detachment as a coping skill
- authentic eccentricity
Aquarius don’t play. Marching to their own drum is a way of life. Aquarius season is peak “I don’t belong here,” which secretly means “I see through this.” This sign is visionary, progressive, and ahead of their time — which is why they often feel misunderstood, alien, or like they’re broadcasting on a frequency no one else tuned into. And yet — here’s the plot twist about Aquarius:
this sign isn’t cold. it’s collective.
Aquarius is the Water Bearer — pouring out ideas, hope, and change into the world. This is humanitarian energy. Community-minded. Revolution-for-the-people energy. it's not rebellion just to rebel. It's rebel because something better is possible. There is hope here.
So this season asks us:
- What systems am I ready to outgrow?
- Where have I been shrinking to fit in?
- What truth am I afraid to say out loud?
Aquarius season is permission to stay weird, question authority, and care about the future like it actually matters (because it does).
Think differently. Stay weird, Water Bearer.
#AquariusSeason #aquarius
Episode 94: 2026 Archetypes-the Wheel of Fortune, the Magician + the Fire Horse
Happy New Year, friends!
It’s Angelica — your friendly neighborhood bruja, omen translator, and occasionally the woman staring at cards in the corner saying, “Huh… that’s interesting.”
Every year around this time, I like to step back and ask:
What stories are we walking into together?
Not predictions.
Not doom.
More like: archetypal weather.
In this week’s podcast, I’m exploring 2026 through three symbolic lenses that have been talking to each other in really beautiful ways:
the Tarot cards of the year
the Chinese zodiac’s Fire Horse
and Horse in the South from the shamanic medicine wheel I work with
Before we get mystical: none of this is fortune-telling. These are metaphors — ways of paying attention.
The Tarot of the Year
For 2026, we’re working with The Wheel of Fortune and The Magician.
The Wheel reminds us that change is not personal punishment. Life turns. Seasons shift. Doors open and close. Control is… well, overrated.
The Magician stands beside the Wheel and asks:
Okay — given what is, what can I create? What tools do I have? What can I do with integrity and intention?
We’re not passengers. But we’re also not the pilot of reality. We’re collaborators.
Enter: The Fire Horse
Then we add another archetype in the mix: 2026 is the Year of the Fire Horse.
I’m not teaching Chinese astrology here — I’m honoring it as symbolic language.
Horse is movement, boldness, independence, momentum. Fire adds creativity, courage, heat… and sometimes impatience.
Historically, Fire Horse has had a complicated (and honestly, patriarchal) reputation, especially regarding strong-willed girls and women. So we reclaim it differently:
Fire Horse is life-force that refuses to shrink.
And that, to me, is holy.
Horse in the South
In the shamanic framework I was taught, Horse lives in the South — the direction of Fire.
South is creativity. South is transformation. South is the power that moves through us — not the power we hoard.
Horse carries prayers. Horse carries messages. Horse carries energy between worlds.
Put all of this together and 2026 doesn’t feel chaotic.
It feels like a year where power wants to move — and where our work is learning how to carry it wisely.
Not burnout. Not martyrdom. Not control-freakery.
Steady, sovereign, creative fire.
In the episode, I share reflections, some humor, and practical ways to ride this energy instead of getting dragged behind it.
We talk pacing, ritual, creativity, nervous systems, and — importantly — how not to set everything on metaphorical fire.
Click to listen: 2026 Archetypes
I also created some intersectional Journal Prompts and a Tarot Layout. (yes, it is shaped like a horseshoe for you!)
And as always, I’d love to hear what you’re noticing, dreaming, and working with. Comment on the blog or hit reply and tell me what’s moving for you.
With candles lit and horses unbridled — but gently,
Angelica
winter solstice + capricorn season
The Winter Solstice arrives like a held breath. The longest night. The quiet hinge of the year. A sacred pause before the light begins its slow return. 🌑✨
This is not a moment for forcing clarity or pushing forward. This is the threshold—where rest is medicine, darkness is fertile, and intention is planted beneath the surface.
For this Solstice, I’m sharing a Winter Solstice Tarot Spread designed to help you:
Release what the dark is composting
Name what wants to be carried into the light
Listen for the wisdom that only shows up when we slow all the way down
I also dropped a re-post podcast episode exploring the history, symbolism, and soul-level meaning of the Winter Solstice—across pagan and Christian traditions, the Wheel of the Year, and the quieter inner rituals we all perform when the year turns.
No hustle magic.
No glow-up pressure.
Just fire, shadow, and the slow return of hope.
It’s also CAPRICORN SEASON, WITCHES!
welcome to capricorn season, beloved overachievers. please take a number. then sit down. preferably.
It’s Capricorn Season — the time of year when everyone suddenly becomes aware of deadlines, bank accounts, bones, and the crushing realization that rest feels rebellious. The vibes are serious-but-sarcastic, the energy is competent yet depleted, and Saturn is here asking why you’re tired while fully knowing he is the reason.
As a Capricorn, I feel qualified to say this: we are so tired, like, ancestrally tired.
This is the season of ambition, responsibility, emotional restraint, and carrying way too much because “someone has to.” Capricorn energy wakes up exhausted, makes a plan anyway, and then resents everyone who seems to be having fun without a spreadsheet. That’s because we are convinced we built it, and nothing was manifested for us.
Capricorn doesn’t run wild.
She builds systems.
Then she maintains them.
We are talking:
• chronic over-functioning
• productivity as a personality trait
• rest that must be earned (spoiler: it doesn’t)
• humor so dry it’s basically a survival strategy
Capricorn season is peak “I’ll rest after this one last thing,” which is a lie we tell ourselves every year, and every year Saturn nods like, yes… one more thing.
And yet—here’s the twist nobody tells you about Capricorn: this sign is not about grind culture. It’s about sustainability.
Capricorn rules bones, time, and long-term vision. She knows burnout isn’t noble and exhaustion isn’t a flex. The lesson isn’t to work harder—it’s to build a life that doesn’t require you to constantly prove your worth through suffering.
So this season asks us: Where have I confused discipline with self-punishment? What if rest is part of the plan, not the reward? What if doing less is actually the most responsible choice?
Capricorn season is permission to stop romanticizing burnout, put the clipboard down, and take a nap like it’s a strategic decision (because it is).
I’ll be sharing Capricorn correspondences, astrology, and painfully accurate memes.
Rest is productive.
Boundaries are sexy.
You don’t need to earn your worth.
Enjoy these Capricorn Season memes while we all lie down “just for a minute” and accidentally have a spiritual breakthrough.
Episode 92: Astrological Forecast and Earth Medicine for December 2025
December is here, and it feels like a crossroads wrapped in a winter blanket. This month brings us right to the bendings of the lunar nodes—the karmic pivot points—where the universe asks us to pause, breathe, and decide what we truly believe. And at the very same time, Earth Medicine invites us to crawl into the cave, curl into our own ribs, and let the year settle into our bones.
It’s a potent mix of crossroads + hibernation, truth-telling + sacred rest. And honestly? That feels exactly right for the closing chapter of 2025.
In this month’s Centered Podcast, I walk you through the big astrology of December:
✨ the Gemini Full Moon that clarifies the story
✨ Neptune’s final station in Pisces (yes, the end of an era)
✨ the Sagittarius New Moon and what wants to be born
✨ Solstice + the Sun entering Capricorn
✨ Jupiter square Chiron and the questions it stirs
✨ Mars moving into Capricorn, where it finally finds clean direction
This is the month where dream meets reality, where intuition meets discernment, where surrender meets structure.
And alongside the astrology, we explore December’s Earth Medicine allies:
🐻 Bear, who teaches us to honor our cycles and trust the cave
💎 Blue Topaz, the stone of gentle, honest clarity
🌼 Narcissus, the winter bloom of self-recognition and soul-truth
❄️ Owning where you are, without shame or rush
🌙 Hibernation + sacred rest, as the most ancient form of preparation
December is not subtle.
It asks you to inventory the year with tenderness, to name what’s dissolving and what’s ready to be built, and to let yourself rest enough to hear the next true step.
If you're craving a quieter rhythm, if you're on the edge of a decision, or if you're simply exhausted from holding too much for too long—this episode is for you.
Listen to the full December Earth Medicine & Astrology episode here:
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I’ll be offering 12 days of magical, limited-edition, ritual-infused offerings — everything from tarot to crystals to mini altars to grief medicine to sacred art. This is my version of an advent calendar for witches, mystics, intuitives, healers, grief-walkers, and anyone craving beauty + meaning at the end of the year.
Each day, I’ll be releasing one-day-only offerings that weave together everything I love:
tarot
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crystals
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grief healing
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Expect:
The 2026 Moon + Stone Healing Calendar
Portable altars
Mystery tarot envelopes
Reiki
Solstice rituals
Crystal mystery bags
Shadow work tools
Grief medicine
Sacred art
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Episode 91: on grief, gratitude and the holy scream
This week, I’m returning to the writings that shaped the earliest years of my healing after my daughter Lucia’s stillbirth in 2008. These three essays — one on the holy clearing power of the scream, one on the deep and complicated dance of gratitude during suffering, and one on the Buddhist tonglen practice — map my journey through grief, spiritual awakening, sobriety, and self-compassion.
These pieces were written from the raw center of my heart:
when I was newly grieving,
newly sober,
newly trying to exist inside a body again,
newly understanding what compassion actually means.
In this episode, I read:
1. “Scream, Baby” — written two years after my son Zachary’s birth and his time in the NICU, exploring pain, primal release, and the scream as an act of healing.
2. “Gratitude” — an essay confronting spiritual bypassing, toxic positivity, and what gratitude looks like when you’re grieving, not in spite of grief.
3. “Tonglen: A Meditation for When You’re in the Weeds” — a compassionate, trauma-informed exploration of the Buddhist practice that helped me breathe inside my pain instead of trying to outrun it.
Here is a brief (2 minute) meditation for those moments after you scream or when you feel stuck.
Here is a brief (4 minute) tonglen practice meditation:
If you’re grieving, healing, overwhelmed, or simply human — this episode is for you.
Here are some essential tonglen resources by Pema Chödrön:
Good Medicine: How to Turn Pain Into Compassion with Tonglen Meditation
Additional Articles & Teachings on Tonglen
“Good Medicine For This World” – an article on Lion’s Roar that explores how Pema Chödrön and Alice Walker talk about tonglen. Lion’s Roar
“Tonglen: The Path of Transformation” by Pema Chödrön (via Nalanda Translation) – a practical guide for the practice. Nālandā Translation Committee
Wikipedia summary on tonglen’s origins, practice, and context. Wikipedia
Additional Writings on Tonglen
Training the Mind: & Cultivating Loving-Kindness Chögyam Trungpa
Bodhichitta: Practice for a Meaningful Life by Lama Zopa Rinpoche
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On Sensitivity, Neurodivergence & the Spiritual Design of Feeling Deeply
I’ve had a weird week.
On Saturday, while playing a spirited, borderline-competitive pickleball match (or three), I collided with my almost-11-year-old and managed to dislocate/hyperextend two fingers by landing on my hand backwards. As I was going down — in that slow-motion moment when your body knows something regrettable is coming — I thought, “Oh, this is going to hurt.” But there wasn’t enough time to fix anything. Crunch. Two fingers pointing in directions fingers do not point.
Luckily, my husband — who is both a nurse anesthetist and disturbingly unfazed by what I call “home surgery” — pulled them back into place. They were swollen, purple, furious — and, of course, on my dominant hand.
Do you know how much you do with your fingers?
Life handed me a minute to find out. And by minute, I mean, six days and counting.
I had big plans for the week: creating stained-glass ornaments for my shop, working on crafts, catching up on holiday prep for my Moon + Stone Healing Studio Open House on the 29th… but my hand said nope. As they say, we plan and God laughs. Instead of rushing around, I spent a morning at radiology (nothing broken, thankfully) and the rest of the week staring down all the things I wanted to do but couldn’t.
There’s a strange kind of Buddhist meditation in that liminal place — being unwell while daydreaming about all the tiny, boring, daily tasks you wish you could do… and remembering that when you’re well, those same tasks feel like they’re coated in anthrax.
Yesterday, I slept most of the day because I pushed my fingers too far the day before and the pain was intense. Ice, malachite, and unconsciousness were my only tools. By 3 p.m., even my hair hurt — my personal signal that I’ve crossed into the land of overstimulation, hypersensitivity, and the urgent need for dark rooms and quiet.
In short, if you haven’t figured it out already:
I am a Highly Sensitive Person. And I am absolutely, unmistakably neurodivergent — definitely ADHD, maybe a touch autistic, and probably a handful of other things I haven’t explored yet.
A few weeks ago, I was talking with a friend about ADHD, and she said she wasn’t sure labels mattered. And I understand that, I do. But I keep thinking about being a Highly Sensitive, neurodivergent kid in a “normal” world. My inability to do what other kids did with ease made me believe my brain was broken, and even further that I was broken. Grossly incapable, even when a therapist told me I was hard to work with because I was “a little more than capable.” Was I, though? I was burnt out and imploding when I went to see him. I was there specifically because I was not capable.
Truth is: I was the smart, “gifted” kid who could never keep it together, who forgot her homework, or whose dog literally ate it. The one who got constant lectures about “wasting my potential.” I remember a teacher yelling at my sister that she would never amount to anything and knowing — deep in my bones — he was yelling at me too.
That became a shadow wound I carried for decades, experiences filled with tiny humiliations and secret shames I tucked away like contraband:
I struggle with executive function.
I struggle with “normal life things.”
I cannot close cabinet doors (I literally don’t see them).
I forget basic tasks while spending hours alphabetizing my spices by region and use.
I am not wired like most humans.
I struggle to function in a world built for neurotypical speed and linear thinking.
I was always either too much or not enough. Always ON — dancing, performing, cartwheeling around town, jumping off furniture, kissing my mom’s hand until she lost patience (and honestly, who could blame her? There were two of us doing it — twin chaos).
Eventually, you internalize it. You can’t fit in. You are weird, loony, loud, sometimes too reserved. You believe with all your heart that your brain is defective. You believe you are defective. And maybe you start drinking because bourbon quiets that inner bully for a moment. Or I did. I did all those things. Can anyone relate?
It wasn’t until a few years ago that I learned I was neurodivergent — ADHD (a weirdo hyperactive woman) — and when I discovered the framework of Highly Sensitive People, something inside me finally exhaled. I saw myself clearly for the first time: the overstimulation, the big feelings, the intuitive knowing, the sensory overwhelm that makes even your hair hurt.
Finding the right language for my brain helped me begin healing that wounded, too-much child inside me. And I am still healing her. Every day.
All of this — the injury, the overwhelm, the (literal) hair pain — threw me back into thinking about what it means to be both Highly Sensitive and neurodivergent in a world built for people who… aren’t.
We talk about ADHD, burnout, overwhelm, sensory issues, autism, trauma patterns, emotional intensity — but rarely do we talk about the spiritual layer underneath all of that. The gifts inside the wiring. The magic inside the overwhelm.
For most of my life, I thought my feelings were the problem. My brain was the problem. I was the problem.
But now I know something I wish someone had whispered into my ear when I was seven years old, turning cartwheels in the living room:
My sensitivity isn’t a glitch — it’s a guidance system.
My neurodivergence isn’t a deficit — it’s a design.
Highly Sensitive People (HSPs) have what psychologists call sensory processing sensitivity — essentially, we take in more information and process it more deeply.
Neurodivergent brains (ADHD, autism, AuDHD, gifted wiring, trauma-shaped wiring) also take in more — more sensory data, more emotional signals, more patterns, more meaning.
Put HSP + neurodivergence together, and you get the deep-feelers, the intuitive ones, the pattern trackers, the artists, the healers, the truth-tellers, the mystics.
Not broken.
Not defective.
Just different. Designed for depth.
The Spiritual Gifts of Sensitivity & Neurodivergence
1. Hyper-sensitivity = intuitive knowing
Your nervous system picks up information before your conscious mind can translate it. This isn’t “overreacting.” It’s energetic intelligence.
2. You’re an emotional barometer
You feel the emotional weather of a room before anyone names it. This helps heal, guide, attune, and connect.
3. You’re a natural transmuter
You metabolize emotion — personal, ancestral, collective. This is healer work, even when it doesn’t feel glamorous.
4. The veil is thinner for you
Dreams, intuition, synchronicity, tarot, spirit nudges — they come through clearer because your inner world is active and alive.
5. Built-in compassion
Your heart sees the wounded child inside others. Sensitivity is emotional intelligence in its highest form.
6. Neurodivergent bodies reject misalignment
You cannot force yourself into toxic environments or inauthentic relationships without paying an emotional or physical price. Your wiring demands truth.
7. It’s a soul contract
Many of us come into this life sensitive on purpose — to heal ancestral lines, to soften the world, to create art, to anchor compassion, to help others feel.
Being sensitive and neurodivergent isn’t an accident. It’s a calling.
You Are Not Broken. You Are Built for Depth.
If no one told you this as a child — or an adult — let me tell you now:
You were never too much.
You were never not enough.
You were always the exact right amount.
Your sensitivity is sacred.
Your neurodivergence is a gift.
Your depth is your design.
I’m grateful you’re here — in all your too-much, not-enough, beautifully wired glory.
Episode 90: Astrology + Earth Medicine for November 2025
Welcome to November, my loves. We’re deep in Scorpio season — the time of year when the veil thins, the shadows stir, and transformation stops being an abstract concept and becomes something we actually feel in our bones. This month’s astrology isn’t here to make us comfortable; it’s here to make us real.
In this episode, we walk together through the cosmic landscape of November 2025, guided by the intensity of Scorpio and the wild optimism of Sagittarius. From the Taurus Full Moon that grounds us in our bodies to the Scorpio New Moon that strips us down to our truth, this month’s energy teaches us how to compost fear into courage, endings into beginnings.
We’ll unpack the big transits and explore what they mean for our collective healing. It’s a month of revelations, boundary work, and bold leaps of faith. Then, we turn to our Earth Medicine for November — Peony, Citrine, and Octopus — each offering its own kind of magic for this rebirth season. Together, they hold the energy of this month’s theme: Grab it while you can.
If Scorpio asks what must die, Sagittarius asks what you’ll do with the life that’s left. This episode is your permission slip to let go, trust your timing, and take the opportunities the Universe places in front of you — even if they scare you a little. Especially if they scare you a little.
🎧 Listen to this episode of Centered on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you find your cosmic medicine. Or listen right here on my website (see below)
💛 Follow along on Instagram @themoonandstone for Earth Medicine updates and daily astrology insights.
Episode 89: Re-post The History of Samhain, Halloween & the Days of the Dead
We’re going back to the roots of spooky season, my pretties. This re-post dives into the ancient fire festival of Samhain and how it shapeshifted into our modern celebration of Halloween. From Celtic bonfires to trick-or-treating, saints to spirits, and mummers to masks, we’ll explore how humans across the world honor their dead when the veil grows thin.
This one’s a listener favorite, so light a candle, pour a little cider for your ancestors, and let’s walk together between worlds.
#Samhain #HalloweenHistory #WheeloftheYear #PaganTraditions #HonoringtheDead #SpookySeason
Some sources:
How the Early Catholic Church Christianized Halloween by Patrick Kiger
The Pagan Mysteries of Halloween. JeanMarkale.Trick or Treat: A History of Halloween. LisaMorton.The History of HalloweenWhat's the Deal with Halloween? Everything Everywhere.
The Origins of Trick or Treating History Channel.The History of Mummers.
Interested in being in circle with me, honoring the dead on Samhain?
I am hosting a distance ancestors cacao ceremony and guided shamanic journey. Connect with the ancestors and find healing in your ancestral line. It is a wonderful way to start doing the work of healing and honoring the agrarian calendar.
talking to the ancestors
Future Ancestors,
As I look out on my land, I hear my ancestors whispering in my ear.
We are always here.
I know this, and yes, I need their strength all the time.
I did this incredibly rich ancestors' journey with Vanessa Codorniu. at Alta View Wellness Center a few years ago. I talk about this every year, so forgive me if you have heard it before. During that experience, I was just open. I love Vanessa and trust her, so maybe that is why.
I had no agenda. I had no idea who would come forward, but I journeyed to Central America, where my family is from, and saw them all there. My mother’s Abuelita Isabel with the curly hair. My grandfather’s mother Maria, who was fully Native, with her hat and pipe. Then out of the jungle, my ancestors with Mayan noses and headdresses and painted skin. Sitting in front of all of them, Vanessa asked us to talk to them. And so I did.
I had so many questions, particularly about offering of cacao to my people, and how to carry the medicine of my ancestors to my clients now. But when I went to ask them that, what came out was, “Why am I so fat? Why can’t I lose weight? Why do I have autoimmune issues that limit me?”
I had a student once tell me she was annoyed in our circle because people’s intention setting was around losing weight, and “THAT IS NOT SPIRITUAL!” She was so indignant. In my head I said, “The fuck it isn’t.” As a woman, when you are raised to see your weight and beauty as your main worth and commodity, being thin is valuable; it was much more valuable than your mental or physical health—gaining weight becomes a catalyst for old wounds opening, the spiritual illnesses of self-loathing and non-existent self-worth. How do you grow spiritually when you hate yourself?
There were times in my life when I was too poor to afford to eat regularly. I often worked in restaurants, so I would be guaranteed one meal. Other times, I just starved myself because I thought I was too big, too loud, taking up too much space. My neurodivergent hyperactive self would just break into conversation without waiting for a pause (Interrupting is STILL something I’m working on!). I wanted to shrink myself and learn how to be quiet and small for real for real. I didn’t always want to say the thing, and then, like Cliff Clavin from Cheers, word diarrhea—"well, did you know that a vultures’ stomach acid is so strong with a pH of 1—that it can dissolve anthrax, botulism, and rabies bacteria, so they can safely eat rotting carcasses that would kill almost any other animal, essentially sanitizing the environment as they go…” Cue 15 minutes of watching someone zone out. Then at night, lying in bed, replaying the conversation where I was normal. Shrinking seemed right, so I would just try not to eat, and stay small.
Self-loathing is decidedly not spiritual. It is the antithesis of spiritual, especially when your entire job revolves around empowering people to their highest expression, to coaching them on how to do the work of radically and unconditionally accepting themselves, walking hand-in-hand with them on their spiritual journey. I have taken months and year-long breaks because the self-loathing is too rough, and it feels unethical to hold space for others when I am in such a deep state of depression and engaged in this personal work of self-acceptance and self-love. So, yeah, it’s spiritual work, people.
Dare I say it:
EVERYTHING IS SPIRITUAL WORK!!
(I apologize for screaming at you.)
Back to the journey, my ancestor stepped forward and said:
You are the answer to all the prayers and wishes of all your ancestors: May our children not be hungry. May they be fat and happy. You are the child who is no longer hungry. You have learned to eat and be nourished.
When we do ancestral healing, this is what we do. We dialogue with our ancestors. We reframe. We understand. We humanize. We integrate. We break patterns. We forgive. We allow their wounds to be our wisdom.
What prayer did you answer for your ancestors?
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A few years ago, my niece said to me, "We come from a long line of witches, right?" And I laughed. It depends on how you define witch. But yeah, we come from a long line of Bitches.
When I call in the ancestors before circle, I call in all the healers and mystics in my lineage. But I also come from a long line of storytelling artists and mystics, bawdy women with good heads on their shoulders, from cooks and musicians, teachers and writers. But the drunks are there too, the ones who acted badly. I have a great-grandmother who denied her own daughter because she cheated on her husband, and gave her daughter away, only to have her son bring the girl to the house as a date to a school dance. Fula, as they called her, looked exactly like her mother, a mirror for her sins. (You cannot make this shit up.) She still denied her and forbade her son from speaking to her. Later, all the children of my great-grandmother welcomed her into the family. Fula laughed a lot and came to every family function, but my great-grandmother never talked to her or acknowledged her existence. God, that is some awful behavior. But my great-grandmother played 9 instruments, and spoke five languages, and made people laugh all the time.
I have clients and students who say, “My ancestors were awful people. What do I do?” First of all, it isn’t just you. We all have ancestors who were awful people. Some in different ways, but that is when we do the work of looking at the legacy of awfulness in your family line. If you don’t know your family line or family stories, that is something else to look at. WHY? The legacy in your family is that they do not speak the stories. Maybe they even repeat patterns over and over because nothing is ever learned or grown from. How I work with my great-grandmother, who was lovely to some of her children, and awful to one, I say, “Thank you for letting me be able to see this and break the pattern of the bad mother. Thank you for allowing me to break the awfulness.” (Instead of awfulness, you can replace that with breaker of our family trauma, pain, abuse, addiction, victimhood, etc.) When we reframe our ancestors —putting them in their historical, trauma, and family context —we can find wisdom, even if it is learning from their sins. Sometimes the deep grief of lives not lived, or their actions, can move through us. We can cry for our family lineage. We can cry for their victims, for ourselves, if we were the victim or them as a victim and victimizer.** This ancestral work is about healing and releasing. We get to be the conduit for compassion, love, and grief if we feel the ancestral lineage hasn’t been compassionate or grieved enough. We get to acknowledge the awfulness of our ancestors, too.
But we transform grief into gratitude through this process. Not for having lost, but for them having lived at all. They brought you here, after all, they created people who created people who created you.
Our Ancestors —the good, the bad, and the ugly —have lessons for us because they were human. This is the medicina they bring forth—their humanness. And not that anyone wants my opinion on this, but this is the beauty and awe of the stories of Buddha and Jesus—their humanness existed, their flaws, their character defects and defaults, but still they sought to heal themselves, then others. They found a path of spirituality that helped them and passed it on. This is also the lessons of our ancestors—that they were human and had a story, which is now part of your DNA. (Epigenetics is a cool rabbit hole to go down)
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Beyond just dialogue with my ancestors, I also think about what it means to be a good ancestor.
How do we become an ancestor vs. just another people on the family tree who died?
Writer Layla Saad, whose podcast How to Become a Good Ancestor, prioritizes this concept, as is evidenced by her podcast title. Basically, she says we need to live and work in a way that intentionally creates a more just and liberated world for future generations. That’s the idea. We live in a way that thinks about the next generations, the earth, the future. We each have a role in the ongoing story of humanity. We focus more on making a positive impact, rather than on our personal achievement. And that doesn’t happen magically, it happens by us engaging in our own spiritual, mental, emotional and physical work, such as self-reflection and understanding one's own role in family systems. Being a good ancestor requires us to break patterns of suffering, not just in our personal lives, but the karmic and ancestral patterns we all fall into that keep our children in suffering and then suffering of our community, which means dismantling things like racism, sexism, ableism…other isms (In recovery, we say -ISM stand for I-Self-Me.) We take intentional action and live from a place of hope, rather than just hoping for the best.
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I create an altar for Día de los Muertos* in mid-October, when I begin to feel the ancestors pushing against me. I call them in. Ask for their help. It is not simply because I come from a culture that celebrates this holiday (though I do), but because I am a bereaved mother. And this American happy-happy culture does a lousy job of honoring the dead and grief.
Day of the Dead is one of those holidays that has grown more and more mainstream with non-Catholic, non-Latino people creating altars, painting their faces, hanging up decorated sugar skulls, and dancing into the night. That isn't happening because others want to become or appropriate another culture, but because we are all hungry to honor our dead. We want to celebrate our ancestors. We want to walk with death, rather than hide our grief and whisper to our dead in the still of the night. It is only in recent history that the dead were hidden away from us, or that we were protected from the dying, the dead, and grief. All cultures from Europe to Asia to Africa to the Americas honored the dead.
So Day of the Dead, I create a space for my ancestors and my predeceased ancestral daughter, hang a painting of her and me that I painted in the early days after her death, and another of my ancestors, the ones that whisper to me in my sessions. I put calaveras and bright colors all around the altar as well as food, water, flowers and candles. In my mother's native Panama, my family walks to the cemetery to have a meal with the dead. They decorate the graves and commune as a family.
Those weeks with my Día de los Muertos altar are not simply a time to grieve, but a time to celebrate life. When we honor our ancestors, we acknowledge the wisdom they have given to us in life and now in death.
It is easy to create an ofrenda, or altar. Place photos of your relatives and ancestors in the space that feels sacred. I often use the top of my bookshelf or an undisturbed space. My mother uses her kitchen windowsill, which I always love too. You can put a candle, offerings of food, or herbs. Place a skull or skeleton (if you love the morbidity of representing the dead) and flowers. It can be as simple or as elaborate as you want. And you don't have to do this only for the ancestors you feel closest to, but also for those whose lessons were deep and difficult. Do it for your peace. If you have no ancestors you want to honor, do it for an artist you admire (Frida, anyone?), or a musician who has passed over. The days of the dead are considered October 31, November 1, and November 2nd. On October 31, All Hallows Eve, it is said the souls of the children who have died come back through the altars to the angelitos. According to tradition, the gates of heaven are opened at midnight on October 31, and the spirits of children can rejoin their families for 24 hours. The spirits of adults can do the same on November 2. November 1 is All Saints Day, when the ascended ones, saints, martyrs, and the angels are honored.
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If you are looking for a guided way to honor the dead, join me on October 31st for Cacao Ceremony & Muertos journey. We will first partake in the sacred cacao, then move into a shamanic journey to connect with the dead—whether it is your passed-over parent or loved one, your grandparents, ancestors you never met, but want to connect with, or a famous artist, sacred figure, philosopher, thinker, or religious figure. Join me on Friday, October 31st for our circle.
Lots of bonuses with this one, including a how-to guide for your ofrenda, how to make a cup of cacao, how to bake pan muerto or sugar skulls, and of course, the healing work we do together in circle. Everything is recorded if you cannot attend live.
*You can read more about El Día de los Muertos at this History Channel link. Just a quick correction, though, we celebrate it in Panama and throughout Central America, so it is not only a Mexican holiday.
**In the Body Keeps Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk , he talks about how PTSD sufferers from the Vietnam War often recounted the trauma they inflicted on others as the trauma they could not heal, because there is no outlet for talking about the awful things they did that they were ashamed of. Just to get nerdy for a minute, the unique part of training for troops going to Vietnam was the way they trained soldiers to fire at object popping up. In previous wars, they trained more as target practice, but since researched showed that a majority of soldiers in WW2 and Korea just froze when confronted with an enemy, the military decided to train them to shoot at moving objects with no faces or human characteristics, so they would freeze less. In the end, there are men responding to movement with gunfire and casualties of civilians and children were so high.
I hope to see you at the circle. Until then, enjoy this playlist I pulled together for Día de los Muertos.
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Be Here Now: The Peaceful Empowerment Works Show with Angie Yingst
It was such an honor to be invited as a guest onto Judy Forder and Janice Leonard’s podcast called Be Here Now: The Peaceful Empowerment Works Show. When Judy asked me what I want to talk about, I responded with I’ll talk about anything, but I am really passionate about turning your wounds into your medicine or maybe it is best to say, “Turning your Wounds into your Wisdom.” That might be an old Oprah quote. I don’t know. I have a sign saying that in my healing room, because I am so passionate about this.
Later Judy said she thought I meant something else, which is interesting, but I jumped right into it on the show. About how everything doesn’t necessarily happen for a reason, but we make meaning out of everything that happens. That is what humans do. That is what I do. And all that I have experienced in life brings me right back to connection with others, circles of humans holding and supporting each other, peace and love, and then ultimately, deep deep compassion.
In this episode, I talk about my beautiful daughter, Lucia Paz, born 12/22/2008, death date 12/21/2008. She was stillborn, but she was still born at 6lbs, 20”. Still my daughter. It was an emotional episode, but talking about my deepest wounds has always reminded me that where it led me in those dark days is light, connection, creativity, and ultimately service to others.
I can tell you so much about what I know and how I was trained to heal others, balance your chakras, bring awareness and wisdom to you in times of transition, but it always comes through my experiences—the death of my daughter, being an SA survivor, my recovery from alcoholism, my cancers and autoimmune challenges, my experiences as a compassionate, god- and earth-centered individual.
One thing I didn’t say, which I wanted to say is that I live the earth medicine path. This isn’t something I do once a month when I show up for a class. I don’t just offer lip service about what I talk about, I have a spiritual practice that is part of my life, that is active and activated every day. If I can offer anyone any advice about being a healer, it is this—we live this path. It is not an easy path, but it is a peaceful path, because we choose peace every day.
Blessed Litha
Blessed Litha, or as I call it: Midsummer (a few days late)!
Celebrating another turn of the Wheel with Summer Solstice celebrations means gathering late into the night, burning the brush in a bonfire, releasing the shit in the way of an awesome harvest season. Some call it Midsummer, Summer Solstice or Litha or Leetha, as others pronounce it. I could not get a clear pronunciation of it. I found an Irish speaker who said Litha, but Wiccans will sometimes say Leetha. Ultimately, the word for the holiday comes from the Anglo-Saxon name for the month of June — Ǣrra-Līða. That essentially translates to “the first liða” — and July is effectively named “the second liða.”
I am holding an online healing circle and guided shamanic journey with dragon in honor of Midsummer! You can find more information here.
impermanence
Hello, my Buttercup,
In the tiniest moments, if I take a breath, focus my attention, center myself, if I empty the mind of its chatter, and pay attention to the blood coursing through my veins, I find peace.
It takes work. A cup of tea, when poured into a beautiful mug and encircled with crystals, a prayer of thanksgiving, and all attention on the act of drinking tea can restart my day, if I allow it to.
I don't always allow it.
I am a bevvy of chaotic thoughts with my post-menopausal ADHD coursing through my brain. SIDE QUEST: LAUNDRY! 80s SONG REFRAIN ON INFINITE REPEAT IN MY BRAIN! (Pop Musik, I am looking at you!) COFFEE! DOG PETTING! Wait, what was I doing?
I sometimes hold on to my inattention, my distractions, my mind chatter like a security blanket, enjoying the torture of retelling a story about how I was the victim of someone else’s unkindness. My shamanic teacher says that storytelling can be a vital part of the healing process at some point, then a complete detriment to the healing process at another. Our wisdom lies in the discernment process.
In the last fifteen years, as I began walking a medicine path, I found myself more sensitive to noises and smells, to foods and chemicals, to storytelling and toxic thoughts. It isn't that I simply needed to banish them, but I needed to notice the way they move through my body and my mind. And then I could discern what is and is not serving me, and what is simply white noise distracting me from right-now.
When I was diagnosed with Celiac disease in 2012, I couldn’t imagine living a life without wheat. I basically lived on baguette, brie, and red wine in my 20s. In my 40s, I realized I could eat none of those things without severe intestinal disruptions. Wheat causes severe arthritic pain and stiffness and stomach pain and flare-ups. Brie keeps me on the toilet for days. And red wine, well, that makes me not care about the above stuff at all, and just want more red wine. Celiac disease strangely coincides with other autoimmune disorders, and the inflammation causes other autoimmine symptoms. So, if I eat wheat, I activate all the diseases. Truly, the cycle of suffering feeds itself.
In Buddhist thought (and, I suppose you can say, Hinduism too), the first noble truth is suffering. The suffering is about being human—just the act of having a body that breaks down, a mind that attaches to distractions and soul sedatives, a spirit that feels separate from everything, and emotions that dictate our actions. So, the idea of death and rebirth is a cycle of suffering. So, the cycle of suffering is not this or that—it is simply being human. Attaining Enlightenment (Moksha in Hinduism or Nirvana* in Buddhism) is about escaping the cycle of rebirth (Samsara), so it is about never having another human life again.** To jump out of the cycle of birth, death and rebirth, because being human is (excuse my bluntness) fucking hard.
Pain is a pain. When you experience it, it is all you can pay attention to. I don't think I deserve that, even though cupcakes are delicious and I once enjoyed them immensely. I don't think I deserve that even though I work hard all day and sweets are a nice reward. I don't deserve to suffer physical pain and bloating. And yet, I couldn't wrap my brain around this not-eating-sugar-or-chocolate thing. It felt like a punishment. As it is, I don't drink, smoke, take anything that alters my consciousness. Even caffeine is limited to half a cup a day. Surely, I deserve chocolate!! Surely, I deserve that thing that makes me feel terrible and bloated, right?!
Sometimes we just need an editor to rewrite the story in our head.
We can sometimes be our own editor, but often we need someone else to read our story with new eyes and perspectives. Someone who understands our typos and strange patterns of speech that do not translate well. I consider myself a leader and a strongly opinionated woman, but I don't always know what is best for me. Case in point, cupcakes and chocolate feel like rewards, and good health feels like a punishment.
I make terrible decisions sometimes. I have friends I call and ask their advice, or talk. I have mentors and a sponsor*** and a therapist and a mother. And I don't often go wandering in my head alone--there be monsters in those woods.
But it takes presence and mindfulness and attention to catch the story in our head leading us off track, and, honestly, mindfulness is much less interesting than scrolling dog videos. And sometimes my defiance rises up—I absolutely do not want to pay attention. I just want some ice cream and a nap. I want to zone out and forget the right now.
The most revolutionary thoughts are centered in love—not simply loving the meek and the vulnerable, but loving the stranger, loving those that we deem the least worthy of our love. Loving the one that irritates you, maybe even loving thy enemy. And most importantly, loving the self. ****
I am still working on it. Like every beauty queen, I just pray for peace on earth. And for every recovering post-menopausal lady, I pray for peace within myself.
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This year has been difficult so far. I am so far up my own butt, I cannot see the light some days. It is storytelling, self-loathing, and mindlessness. It is grief and loss and disappointment and anger at myself. Soooo much grief.
After the death of my daughter in 2008, impermanence was no longer some esoteric topic I read about in Buddhist magazines. It was my life now, and it scared the crap out of me. If my daughter died, then it could be anything, really. My other daughter. My sons. My husband. My marriage. My house. Myself. Everything dies. Everything changes. Every situation will morph and grow and change. And when I am content, I really don't want anything to change because I like things exactly as they are. Well, mostly, I want this to change, that to change, but the other stuff has to stay exactly as I want it. And THAT's the thing, right-now is much different than the right-now of five years ago, or the right-now of last week or the right-now before Celiac disease. And sometimes we have to change the thing we don’t want to change to change the thing we want to change. Our suffering comes from imagining right-now as immutable, absolute, and never-changing. The only thing that doesn't change is that everything changes.
When we lose people, jobs and things, we dance with impermanence in an intimate way. We can be paralyzed by the fear of it, or we can be enlightened by it, empowered by it, motivated to be present with the right-now. The truth of impermanence causes us to choose either suffering or mindfulness.
Is a cupcake torture or reward?
Perhaps that sounds too simplistic, but truly, we can make it that easy. When you are suffering over a sick friend, or a broken crystal, or a comment on a political post on social media, what if you shifted the focus to right now? Right now, I am honored to offer healing and prayers for my friend. Right now, I am grateful for the years I worked with the amazing medicine of this crystal. Right now, I am grateful I know so many people with differing views of the world, so that I may expand my understanding of other points of view.
Mindfulness doesn't have to be another meaningless buzzword. It can be a practice borne out of ADHD side quests, sneaky hate spirals, resentment storytelling, out of fear, out of suffering and into your right-now. And the present moment is where peace lies, and where happiness exists, if we just take the time to notice it.
So, this week, I am giving you permission to ask someone for advice about some truth you have held for a long time. I would tackle that sneaking suspicion you have that one truth not serving your Highest Good. Ask a friend if it is true. Pick their brain. Maybe it is how you approach your work, or how you have envisioned your body, or what your childhood was really like. Whatever it is, remember to listen with wide eyes. I often quote this speaker I once heard who said, "It is not what you don't know that will kill, but what you know with absolute certainty that simply is not true that will kill you."
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I actually wanted to write to you today about something else, which is to remind you that I opened a little in-person healing studio, and I see clients for tarot reading and earth medicine/crystal healing, Reiki and shamanic sessions both in-person at the Moon + Stone Healing Studio in Harrisburg and through distance work on Zoom. You can make an appointment with me right here:
If you are in the Harrisburg area, I am running a little special tomorrow for 30 minute session for $60. Give me a text or call to book: 717-770-9109.
*Bodhi refers to the state of enlightenment, while Nirvana signifies the ultimate goal of liberation from suffering and the cycle of rebirth. Bodhi is the path to, and the state of, enlightenment, while Nirvana is the destination, a state of perfect peace and cessation of suffering.
**About past life work, when I hear people talking about their past lives and who they were, I want to ask—what did you learn in that life? Why is that life popping up in your consciousness now? What were you to learn that you either learned or continue to carry that karma? Past life work isn’t about finding out all the cool things you once were (because we were all cool in one life or another.) It is about learning what karma we are carrying and learning how to clear it. Looking at patterns to break them.
***I have written a podcast, but not recorded, in my Recovery for the Masses series about what a sponsor is and is not. Anyone who thinks that would be a good addition to my podcast series, let me know!
**** My latest podcast is all about the Stranger in the Bible and Ancient Mediterranean religions. You can listen to that here:
Centered Episode 81: The Stranger in the Bible and Ancient Mediterranean Religions
Episode 80: May's astrological and earth medicine reading
ch-ch-changes...and growth and little deaths
To be honest, I have been struggling to write, like I’ve been struggling to sleep and not sleep. I thought I had some kind of deep illness and my cancer was back a few weeks ago, because I couldn’t get up and go. I had to nap—once, twice, three times a lady. I called my primary care physician and asked her to test me for anything that causes fatigue—anemia, infection, mono, Lyme disease…anything. Turns out there is nothing wrong with me.
But all I want to do is sleeeeeeep…and rest me eyes, like a pirate on holiday on a deserted island.
Maybe it is depression, then I was like, of course it is depression. So, yeah, that is the conclusion I came to. It is situational as my life has been chaotic this year. During my yearly tarot pull, I have been using the Alleyman’s Tarot, which is my current favorite deck…Goddess bless, that deck is perfect. (Sidenote: the Alleyman pulled cards from all kinds of decks to make one chaotic, strange, and totally insightful deck of mismatched cards and cohesive interpretation. I pledged on a whim on his Kickstarter, and fell in love with it when it came.) This is a deck with an insane amount of Death cards, or Death-like cards, and out of the 9 cards I pulled, 6 of them were Deaths or Death Adjacent, like a card called Bone Fire, which is equivalent to the Tower. As a Tarot Reader, you sort of start laughing and shaking your head. By the end of the reading, you can only say, “What. The. Fuck. Seriously?” Or “I am fucked, seriously.” Or some combination of those words.
Then February came, and the bomb dropped in my life, and I go—okay, Angelica Maria de las Vulturas, you picked the word Change for the year, then pulled Death 9 times, and you are surprised that devastation is here? You asked for it. The truth is, I root for Death when my clients come to see me—it is about release and letting go of the dead things, but when Death comes for me, I freak out. “Why do things have to change?” I whine at the same time I am lighting the fire on the bridge of life. Don’t get me wrong, I love to be on the other side of change. I love when things shift and evolve and grow to meet me. Everything that has happened to me in life has led me to the place I needed to go.
One of my favorite sayings is Stop Watering Dead Plants. And as a plant lady, I have watered plants past their death, begging like Kisa Gotami to bring back my baby. I have watered so many dead things, like Persephone, praying my Goddess of Spring era works in the underworld only to see flowers die from being overwatered, then the water keeps coming and coming and coming, until the whole of Hades is flooded.
Things are changing. They needed to change. I just hate not know how it will look at the end of the changing.
I must change too. I have babied myself, nurtured me, taken deep care to rest me, and nap me, and feed me good things. But all that time away from work, made me realize that I miss work. I miss holding space for people in real life, or sitting with a client and pulling cards, drawing on their beautiful spirit and desires. I love distant work too, which puts me in contact with so many amazing humans around the world.
But the act of Death and change and transformation is ultimately an act of creativity. Resurrection is all the rage. Transformation, death, creativity, art, and rebirth that is kind of my vulture-like jam. And by jam, I mean, I want it on every little bit of toast that I eat. I want that jam on surround sound. Creativity breathes and moves. It draws people in and connects us more deeply that anything else…think of your favorite song or poem or painting and all the other people who connect through that world…we need art and creative energy. I need art and creative energy like water.
Maybe I have been feeling like a “mostly dead” plant, because you can start watering a mostly dead plant, and slowly watch the green come back. Yes, maybe some brown and dried leaves will be gone forever, but if you repot, give her some new soil, attention, sunlight, care, love, and just the right amount of water, the plant will thrive.
I am burying the lead again, as I am wont to do, but all of this is to say I have some news. I am opening my in-person practice again at Alta View Wellness Center. I will be taking over the lower level classroom to see clients, do readings, and sell some items in a retail space. My idea is to have more handmade, recycled, used, and upcycled items than new. I thought that a metaphysical thrift shop would be ideal for me to handle. I won’t be open everyday all day, but have weekly hours that are semi-regular on Thursday, Friday and Saturday, but I will also open by appointment if needed. I will post weekly hours on my website and on my FB page.
But right now, it is just slowly coming together, but I am planning a Grand Opening celebration-y thing on May 3rd where my shop will be open 10 am to 2 pm. At Noon, I will do a guided meditation, then go into a Tarot Gallery, reading for whoever is there. I hope to see you there. This event is free, and my ten-year-old son Zachary will have a bake sale/pop-up café at the shop to raise money for Four Diamonds Mini-thon, which empowers K-12 students to raise funds and awareness to help conquer childhood cancer. Actually, Four Diamonds covers 100 percent of all medical expenses related to cancer care not covered by insurance for eligible Four Diamonds children. Because of the community’s steady and generous support, Four Diamonds has assisted 100 percent of the childhood cancer patients who have been treated at Penn State Health Children’s Hospital. Zach is a Mini-THONs leader, so he is spearheading this, and I am excited for him.
I have an RSVP if you are reading this and might be able to come. Just click here:
So, that’s what I have been up to. No worries, distant clients and members of the Moon + Stone membership, I am still going to be there for you too. I am still doing monthly Full Moon and New Moon readings, sharing the earth medicine knowledge and holding my weekly coffee + cards circle on Monday morning. If you want to join the Membership Group, check out all the deets on the Membership page
One change that might affect you is that I have set up my online scheduler to accept in-person clients as well as distance clients. So, check in and make sure you are scheduling the correct appointment, but otherwise, I am so excited to be reconnecting in person with clients and watering myself just enough. Schedule an appointment with Angie at this link.
Much love,
Angie
don't cry
Happy Pisces Season, friends!
In 2000, I lived in a weird apartment in South Philly’s Italian section, right at 12th and Tasker. It was weird because there was no closet, and I never noticed until I moved in. My trapeze artist boyfriend would literally crawl up the wall into my apartment and just appear to show me how unsafe it was, but I actually liked it. It was one big room with all my books, a table, futon, and me. I took lots of baths.
There was an opera café across the street, you know, a café where the waiters sing opera while serving you. I would hear them practice in the afternoon when all my windows were wide open. I was back in college after a hiatus to get married, move to the desert, learn a bunch of stuff about myself, and then come back to Philadelphia. I was kind of beaten by life at that point. I had a failed marriage. I was living off student loans and working in a vegan café as a cook. My parents owned their second house were married with two kids by my age.
I was confused about my life—I had been a film major, and really wanted to go back to my childhood love of journalism, but I had been encouraged to study something I loved and write about it, rather than take journalism classes. So, I became a religion major, but I started taking some of classes outside of my major for pre-requisites in different schools, and I was taking a figure drawing class. I loved that class. I wanted that class to be 100% of my time, and the professor got me after class and said, “Angie, you should major in Art, or at the very least minor in it.” And I said, I have so much going on. I can’t imagine adding another thing. I was already in the Honors College, and working, and taking 16 credits. And she said every class, “Think about it.”
Art is part of my psyche and my life, and so I did think about it all the time. I also was healing from some significant relationship pain and trauma, which I will not go into here. One afternoon, I was just lying on my bed reading a magazine of artwork, like one does. And I saw this painting. It was a white abstract painting and very small in script on the edge of the painting it said, “don’t cry.” And I stared at it for so long. That was basically my mantra from the time I was 4. Don’t cry. Don’t’ cry. Don’t cry. When I cried, even at that age, I would beg my mother not to tell my dad that I cried today. Please do not tell him, because he would make fun of me...wah, did the baby cry? I was still a baby, but still, I always tried to stop myself crying. But that painting, it took me back to a time when I tried so hard to be strong when I need gentleness. It made me cry and cry for that 4 year old.
I cut that painting out and put it up on my fridge. Many years later, I found Yoshitomo Nara’s painting Don't Cry, 2012 and still have that as a wallpaper on my computer. But I think it resonated because this is my wound—don’t cry. That simply phrase—the one my father said in his actions, the one I repeated in my head because I felt so damned emotional all the time, the phrase that I ended up rebelling against after my daughter died. Crying is how I healed. Crying is how I feel. Crying is my greatest gift. Crying is the opening of the heart.
And so I say this because Crying is Pisces's gift. Emotions can be close to the surface. When you notice yourself saying, "Don’t cry, suck it up, be a man, grow some ovaries, or whatever abusive, societal crap you say in your head, rebel! Fight against it. Just cry, damnit. Cry cry cry..be dramatic. Draw a bath and linger in the melodrama of it all….it is okay. That is why we have bathtubs!
Love you.
Episode 76: December's Astrology and Earth Medicine with Angie
Episode 75: The Wicked Women of Greek Mythology
Ever wonder why stories of women in mythology and religion so often paint them as the villains? From Pandora opening the jar of evils to Medusa's transformation into a monster, these tales shape cultural narratives that endure today.
In this episode, Angie dives into ancient Greek mythology to unpack how women like Pandora, Medusa, and Circe have been scapegoated for humanity's woes—and how feminist perspectives reclaim their stories as symbols of curiosity, defiance, and resilience. We’ll explore the gods’ messy, human-like flaws, Zeus's power plays, and Hera’s complicated transformation from a powerful pre-Greek goddess to a vengeful Olympian queen. This is part one of a series on “Wicked Women,” examining how patriarchal storytelling turns women’s strength into cautionary tales.
Want Angie to cover Adam, Eve, Lilith, and the Abrahamic traditional takes on women next? Let her know! Email, DM, or comment—because these stories deserve a closer look.
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dia de los muertos
Honoring the Days of the Dead around these parts, and hoping you are feeling that sense of connectedness with your ancestors and passed over loved ones. If you are looking for a guided way to honor the dead, join me on November 1st for Cacao Ceremony & Muertos journey. We will first partake in the sacred cacao, then move into a shamanic journey to connect with the dead—whether it is your passed over parent or loved one, your grandparents, ancestors you never met, but want to connect with or a famous artist, sacred figure or philosopher, thinker or religious figure, join me on Friday for our circle.
Lots of bonuses with this one, including a how to guide for your ofrenda, how to make a cup of cacao, how to bake pan muerto or sugar skulls, and of course the healing work we do together in circle. Everything is recorded if you cannot attend live. Until then, enjoy this playlist I pulled together for Dia de los Muertos.
Episode 73: Q+A Episode on Existentialism, the Meaning of Life + the Gospels according to Angie
Click here to access Episode 73 on Spotify.
On this week’s episode, I am answering some questions from my listeners, and they ended up being long. Little did they know they hit on some of my special interests as a neurodivergent religion + philosophy nerd. (hello, sailor!) Here are the questions and time where you can find them:
Question 1 : (at 4:35)
from Becky Davis, ACM
How do we find meaning when our day-to-day lives feel empty?
Question 2 : (at 29.06)
from Lee Ann Huebner
This is something I've been meaning to research forever.
When did the quote in the Bible from Jesus saying he was the only way to God first show up? Cause I'm not buying it. One it doesn't seem like something he would say and why would God exclude much of the human souls on this planet with a one line quote.
I also discuss Spirit of Oneness in Harrisburg PA, hosted by Sharon Muzio of Alta View Wellness Center. You can find more information at http://spiritofonenessevent.com . It takes place Saturday, October 5th from 10am to 6pm and Sunday, October 6th from 10am to 5pm.
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